A poem(not by myself)

The Dream

I dreamed that you had ceased to love me—
not that you had come from other beds
back to mine, or gone from mine to others,
just that something in your heart had stopped.

I willed myself awake to find you still
beside me. It was just a dream, I thought,
yet when I turned to kiss you, in your eyes
I saw that you had ceased to love me.

I willed myself awake a second time
to find myself alone, as I have been
these many months, but did not know if it
was terror or relief I felt, and whether

dreams unfold the past or make the future
plain. I dreamed that you had ceased to love me,
and know when I see nothing in your eyes
I can't dream myself awake a third time.


David Solway

Stumbleupon brought me to a page just now and all that was on that page was this poem. It's quite sad, and the worst part is knowing what its like to be the other person, the one who stopped loving, and I guess thats why this poem says a lot to me.

AND NOW FOR SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT!

I need help deciding on a totem for summer camp this year. So let me explain what I mean at camp we have the dining hall and all the campers go to their tables and each table grabs a totem that represents a staff member. The staff member then goes and sits at that table. Last year I used a large stuffed gorilla and the year before I used a howler monkey, but I don't know what I should use this year, any ideas?

also, if anyone knows any good campfire songs and skits I would appreciate it if you could pass them along to me cause I need to have 2 ready for summer.

This upcoming week:

So, a lot of stuff is going to be happening this week, and here's how things are looking:
1.Carrie will be having her baby boy, and I will finally have a nephew, that should be tuesday that they induce labor.
2.June rolls around
3.The pool is officially up to 85 degrees and soon enough there will probably be a pool party for a large number of my friends
4.I will start my final project in physics that I still have no clue how to go about doing
5.I will start my political alphabet book for PIG that is going to take a few hours D:
6.I will be buying/trading more magic cards trying to finish my decks before camp starts
7.My D and D group should have our first run.
8.last but certainly not least Lots of Ice Cream and soda while lounging in the sun :D

so yeah, that's my life atm, I just need to convince myself to go outside more often

oh, and I cont forget operation "turn TJ's babies into super geeks" will begin. TJ is my sisters husband, and he's made a few comments about how their baby boy, Rex, who will soon be born, is going to be raised to be a quarter back. so, I am going to sabotage this plan by turning Rex and my nieces into dice rolling, magic playing, super geek babies.

School draws to a close

So, 15 more days of high school and 2 projects left to do in that time, and nothing matters any more. weeeeeee.
On a videogame related note:I havn't been playing any, whats wrong with me? I havn't touched WoW, FF, or anything else besides when I have friends over who ant to play brawl. Well I've also been playing Pokemon but I'm not even battling, only hatching eggs for a shiny cause I fail that much. I havn't even played portal 2 yet, though I love the new ending song(don;t tell anyone but I like it even more than still alive) I also wasted like 36 hours of my life on the videogame for the pokemon card game online over a course of 2 days, lol.

I've finnished 5 books over the last 2 weeks and have no idea what to read cause everything on my bookshelf that I haven't read looks boring and I cant find anything outstanding at the library. I need to continue the wheel of time series, but its too daunting, also I have no idea where I left off, and I dont want to have to reread the first 5 books. There's also game of thrones but it will take me like 3 months to read each of those books. I'm having trouble picking up large books now caused the last 3 series I've read have been easy to read 400 pages each, not too small print, just fun. You know a 2 or 3 day read and I no longer know how to stay interested for long stretches of time. maybe this explains why I havn't blogged in forever lol.

I have a major problem, I have spent well over $100 on magic cards in the last few weeks... and I have no intention of stopping any time soon XD. I basically blew half the money I had saved up in 1 weekend. Really someone, I need help, how am I going to buy food in college when I blow all my money like this?

Now, I need to go learn a ton of stuff about Nuclear physics for a science project, 2 important questions, how would one go about building a model nuclear reactor and warhead? and How would one bring a model nuclear warhead into school without getting in serious trouble?