Rolemodels, double standards, and growing up

So, I was driving Tyler home and we were listening to a lot of Bowling for Soup songs while singing along in the car. This was after a day of hanging out with him, Karah, and one of Karahs friends. Of course the subject of drinking came up, along with other things like clubbing, hooking up, friends, ex-friends, and other not so fun subjects. But while driving, listening to this music, and just trying to have a good time I also started to think about role models and things like that.
Like I have said before, I have no idea where most of my ideologies came from and my questioning them hurts me. So I have no role model that has ever really tried to keep me on the straight and narrow, away from drugs and alcohol, and the other "evils" of society. But when I think about it, I have a favorite band, Bowling for Soup for those who don't know, and they, along with every other band in America drink. They probably also do other things but that's a different story. But my point is that these bands drink, they have songs about it, its socially accepted, and I grew up listening to it, so in all reasonableness, shouldn't I have grown up with these people as a roll model? Shouldn't I have been shown from a young age that its ok?

I don't understand why I like them now, when there are people that I hate just for the fact that they drink or do drugs. I mean, thats one of the main reasons for my dislike of the beatles, that they were so famous and everyone knew they were on all sorts of drugs, but it didn't matter because that's just the era they were in(insert other random excuses here). So why is it ok that a band drinks, and not when other people do it? I guess it comes down to age and laws. I never have a problem with an adult drinking, and yet for anyone under age I pass judgment on a case by case basis, most of the time resulting in me either hating them or trying to ignore the fact.

So, I met someone today, one of my girlfriends friends. He is in the army, and he's a fine guy, we had a fun time hanging out. And when I was making food he made a comment about some recipes that he experimented with while high and that turned out to be really good. Now this is where my mind starts creating double standards. I had been hanging out with him for a few hours before hand, He was in the army, I liked him, and then I found this out and I didn't know what to think. Fortunately he also said something about how he doesn't do it any more or else the rest of the evening would probably have been more awkward, but I really don't know what to think.

Is it ok to have opinions on someone based on what they used to do? do people really change? did he stop because he wanted to or because he had to? is he still that type of person? just so many questions I ask myself and then I just don't know weather or not I want the friend anymore.

God, I'm going to be so screwed when I get to college.

So I guess it's time for another rant

Well, brake goes fine and I've been pretty busy which is always good, however that also means I have yet to start the 10 hours of homework my teachers assigned. Whatever, I can get it done Saturday or Sunday, hopefully. Unfortunately, I have yet to pick up a book since break started, I've been too busy playing WoW or hanging out with people, well that and organizing my Magic cards because I had nothing better to do.
So have you ever started like a really big project then just set it down and say I'll come back to it later but then you never do because its really boring and now that it's half completed it looks like there's even more to do because everything is a mess? well thats what my room is like right now because I have magic cards everywhere that I was trying to make all neat and orderly and find the ones that are actually valuable.
On another note I have once again lost my cell phone, and of course this comes like 3 days after I got it fixed for the second time. Hopefully it will show up soon, but phones really need to vibrate louder so I can find them.
I finally put some job applications in because I currently have $10 to my name, so hopefully I'll have some means of obtaining money before camp starts.
And finally People aggravate me, and there are many instances of this popping up right now. In school for example, I'm in two big clubs, Mock Trial and Science Olympiad, both of them are clubs where we go to big competitions and compete against other schools in the hopes of moving on and winning. Well in Mock Trial one of our witnesses just quit because, even though this was his 2nd year in the club, he didn't know "how time consuming it would be." so now we need to throw one of our alternated into his spot and hope she learns her part quickly enough. in Science Olympiad I am on the B team, and we did really good at regionals , but our school can't afford to send both A and B team to states so A team gets to go and then a few other people who didn't make A Team get to go as the Spirit Squad, basically we would go and cheer on the A team at their events. there are 2 seniors who didn't make A team, Me and Hannah, Hannah is going as an alternate basically yet for some reason our coordinators decided the I wouldn't be on spirirt squad even though I put a ton of hours into all of my projects and I meddled in my events, one of which in an event even A team didn't place in. Sure there are some people on B team who deserve to go more than I do, but I put a ton of effort in and this is my final year there is no reason that I shouldn't have been part of the Spirit Squad. Prout and Morgan, the supervisors of Sci Oly, have just been making a lot of stupid decisions this year, like our executive counsel, there is someone on it that has been in the club for only 1 year whereas people who havwe been in it for 7 weren't chosen. Whatever, I'm just glad that I don't have to deal with them any more, I don't have to listen to their stress.

Science olympiad and whatnot

SO tomorrow is my Science Olympiad competition and I am stressed out right now, like very stressed out. Our maglev car doesn't work, so I need to beast the test with Hannah, and our protein only has a few addons, so I need to rock that test too, but alone. And then chemlab which I havnt really been studying for at all, because hopefully I'll have retained some knowledge of chemistry, same with my partner.

So yeha I'm kinda screwed, I mean I feel like I'm gonna let my partners down now, and idk if I'm going to place at all. But oh well, its not like I could get to states anyway, our school cant fund it. Hopefully I'll get to oin our spirit squad though.

Beyond that I have a Mock trial competition on tuesday, and then they are like every other week. Thank god all my college financial aid stuff is done now because theres no way I could put up with that stress too.

And I need to go about finding a job still to pay for gas now that I can drive.


But genericon starts in one week, and that means everything will be ok. Because its going to be awesome and I can forget everything for a while.