I realized something last night, this will be a last Christmas. It will be my parents last Christmas with kids in the house, my last Christmas living at home, but worst of all, this will be my last time having Christmas as a child. It's so different from what I remember, when I was a child the room would be filled from wall to wall with a bunch of cheap toys that could entertain me for hours if not days and then one big ticket item, now there's just a few presents scattered about. We hung the mantel just a few hours ago and we have these little Disney character lights that we wrap around them and once we got the mantle up christen asked if I wanted to go through the extra effort to put the lights up. I said that this is my last Christmas as a child, and I'm going to be one as much as I can, so we hung the lights.
I'm not the same person I was last year, nor the year before, but i still cringe whenever I realize how different everything is. Childhood really is a blessing, being able to do so much with so little responsibility, and I feel that its wasted now, soon enough I will be supporting myself with an job and trying to figure out how the rest of my life will be spent.
It reminds me of the 10th doctors final lines, when he is about to switch from Tennant to Smith, he knows he's about to change, but when the doctor regenerates he is no longer the same person, for all intents and purposes the man he was dies. he simply says "I don't want to go" I dont want things to change, but I guess new adventures will come along and a new me will always find a different way of looking at things
Oh and merry Christmas or happy holidays
But you'll still visit them on Christmas, won't you? Unless you were too far away to?
ReplyDeleteThe whole "growing up" thing scares me a little...I like being carefree.
I keep thinking "Wow, I won't be doing this at all next year!" But when I come back I think I'll be going to a college nearby so I'll live at home for a bit.
Oh, and about the comment you made on your earlier post, I don't forget any person who was ever my friend and just because we no longer see each other everyday doesn't mean that we'll only be acquaintances. I'm still friends with people in Japan and I only see them every other year. I send them a few letters a year too. We'll still talk on Facebook and if you keep up on your blog. I'm also going to try to get a Skype for next year too. (My parents want me to get one...)
lol, since I just got a laptop with a web cam Kristen is going to make me get a skype and then I suppose that will help me keep in contact with people as soon as I find everyone on it. All this new technology is defiantly helping keep in contact with their old friends but idk if its a blessing or a curse
ReplyDeleteI was talking to a teacher the other day and she was telling me about how there are people in college who spend so much time trying to keep up with their old friends via facebook and whatnot that they have trouble making new college friends, that's the same reason for why you shouldn't try to room with an old high school friend because you might end up clinging to each other and not making new friends whereas if you separate and you both make new friends then you can meet many new people through each other.
I GOT A LAPTOP WITH A WEBCAM TOO!!!! Mine already has the Skype installed in it though.
ReplyDeleteYeah, but I plan to focus on my studies. I'll make a few friends but I'm aiming my goals at a pHd so I can't exactly be partying. XD
lol, Hana no offense but I really cant imagine you partying anyway, at least not in the normal college party sense
ReplyDeleteYea, I know right?
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