AGAIN

Why is it that everyone feels the need to tell Kristen everything. She is my sister, she doesn't need to know everything about me.

I get it, you guys pulled an april fools joke on me, but i thought you realized that it wasn't funny! and you still tell kristen about it. and once again she brings something up at the dinner table that 1. she doesn't need to/shouldn't know and 2. my parents definately don't need to know.

You must realize when you tell a teenager something, especially about someone they hate, they are going to spread it around, thats how a rumor starts. 

Your joke wasn't funny, as a matter of fact it was very hurtful. Do you have any idea what it feels like to be ready to kill someone? to chase them down, tackle them, and really be ready to kill them? cause i do. Then you find out it was a stupid joke. Today all that was going through my mind was that i had been ready to kill him with my own hands and it was all a joke. A FUCKING SICK JOKE!

if it was anyone else i would have been angry, i would have puched them, i would have done something, but because it was him i was ready to kill him. This was just one straw too many. I was ready to go straight for his neck and i would have too, had he not run. As i was chasing him i was thinking about drop-kicking him and kneeing him where it hurts. 

Yesterday was the best day i had in a long time, it was the first day i had been tuly happy in a long time. It was a great day, i had started one of my projects, school was going great, i got to play austin in magic, i was supposed to have plenty of time with molly and i got an invite somewhere i havn't been before.

When i got home i went into my bedroom did my homework and lay numb on the floor for half an hour. i didn't cry because i already cried too much this week. I felt aweful, i had never even asked for the full story or anything, it was all i could do not to run and find ethan as soon as i was told.

It was going to be one of the amazing days, you know? One where you wake up and know that great things are going to happen. It was one of those days, and hen i found out the feeling was wrond. I thought about suicide for the first time in ages, i thought about breaking up with molly in more depth than even after snowball, and there is nothing i can do to take it back.

I was ready to kill someone, i even thought about killing myself and you are telling my sister about a prank you pulled on my. Thats a great feeling,