24 hours of alone time isn't enough

So, camp is almost 2/3 of the way over and I'm getting really tired of it, I mean theres the whole only 1 day away every week, which really sucks, and the same food over and over again is becoming a hassle but oh well, at least there's lots of magicking going on and we watched rocky horror last night which was pretty awesome. Speaking of magicking, we are doing a draft at camp and 1 guy pulled 3 planes walkers out of 6 packs, for those non-magickers that's roughly $76 in cards for his $20 not to mention the other rares he pulled as well.

Oh well, it happens, just kinda jealous and ranty.

on another note, I only get to see my love twice a week, which is no good especially since before camp I was essentially seeing her every day. And we both have our schedules set up for college, but of course we don't have a lot of free time together where I could catch the shuttle over to HVCC and hang out with her :/

Student orientation at RPI was pretty sucky too, I kinda failed at the socializing aspect of ti because that's just who I am, I spent the majority of the time just hanging out with Hannah because I already knew her, and I never really introduced myself to anyone besides this girl named Shawn and another girl named Luna, both of which were pretty awesome. Then I got shafted on my schedule and couldn't get into any of the time slots I wanted so now I have classes all day instead of right in the morning so I could get them out of the way. And apparently Hannah got shafted even worse than I did, so yeah the whole process was nowhere near as well thought out as it could have been in my opinion.

On a final note for today, I got into another fight with another one of my friends because of my ideologies. She tried to apologize but I spurned here and I don't really know if I should try to talk to her, right now it all just kinda disgusts me, but I guess on a better note I might be giving some older friends another chance, depending on the next few weeks.

Another Poem I found

Solitude

Laugh, and the world laughs with you;
Weep, and you weep alone.
For the sad old earth must borrow it's mirth,
But has trouble enough of its own.
Sing, and the hills will answer;
Sigh, it is lost on the air.
The echoes bound to a joyful sound,
But shrink from voicing care.

Rejoice, and men will seek you;
Grieve, and they turn and go.
They want full measure of all your pleasure,
But they do not need your woe.
Be glad, and your friends are many;
Be sad, and you lose them all.
There are none to decline your nectared wine,
But alone you must drink life's gall.

Feast, and your halls are crowded;
Fast, and the world goes by.
Succeed and give, and it helps you live,
But no man can help you die.
There is room in the halls of pleasure
For a long and lordly train,
But one by one we must all file on
Through the narrow aisles of pain.

Ella Wheeler Wilcox

Summer

Ok, so tomorrow is the last day of high school. It's kinda sad, but I'm hanging out with friends after and I still have another week and a half before I head off to camp to abandon everyone.

I have basically been playing nonstop magic for the last few weeks, and that's fun, we might try to turn my elf deck into a legit legacy deck, so that could be fun, if a bit expensive. I've officially worked my last day as a pizza boy for now, and have the week off till camp, why do I feel like its just going to be sitting around bored since I already only talk to like 5 people.

I've handed in the last of my things for RPI, at least that's what I thought until I got more main from them, saying I have to mail more stuff out by July 2nd, but at least this is just choosing where I was to go with some people from my freshmen class the week before school starts. Speaking of which, I have no idea what to do. There is a white water rafting one, and a rock climbing/spelunking one, a long hike at lake George, and a high ropes course, as well as more, and I have no idea which one I want to go to, they all sound awesome.

So, a weird thing happened to me today. Someone asked me why I stopped talking to someone, they said that they had heard a reason and really hoped I hadn't let something so small ruin my friendship. So I told them that I stopped talking to those people because they started doing pot. The person said that this was a stupid reason, that it was such a small part of their life that it shouldn't even matter to me, especially since they wouldn't do it around me. Idk, I just found it really odd, when I tried to defen my stance they just kept saying that I was overreacting about something so small, and then I realized 2 things, 1. that I would only have to deal with them for 1 more day and 2. that I was happier now, I had no trouble with the fact that I couldn't trust them anymore, they are just people again, albeit people who I used to be close to, but now they just don't matter, they're just 2 more of the pot heads at our school that I'll never need to associate with again.